Tuesday, February 21, 2006

Recent conversations.

A recent conversation I had with a friend. Names changed for the protection of the public at large.

Remember when you were mad at me and we didnt' speak?
when was this?
in college
whenever ur mad at me
it was cuz I was in a really vulnerable time and need support and you weren't there
I'm curious. Coz I think I don't get along with girls sometimes.
right ok. I remember that.
ok
LOL
you're there now
no no
i am I guess, but i mean
I think i am too insensitive sometimes
and self centered.
I don't think about the other person.
....
what do u think
coz I don't want to be an ass
I don't know I think alot of guys are like that, i've discovered
it's the lack of the nuturing side
I think I'm mature, but I think i'm stuck, not so fluid in my thought/emotional process
yes. I know. so it's kinda an issue.
but yes I think it's a learned behavior for guys
what is
the nuturing
hm
even GREG freezes up when I need support
I think he just doesn't know what to do
I think I do.
i'm just more combatitive
i think
but to be a caring supportive individual i think you have to learn the nuturing behavior
and I challenge.
LOL
maybe
OK.
like what?
but if someone's vulnerable
why combat that
I know
u know how I push people's buttons?
hah yes
like emotionally
and I know I'm doing it.
hmm no I actually haven't witnessed that
yeah u have
u've been a victim to it
hmm why do you keep doing it? if you know you do
I think it's the acting thign, like i like the drama
i feel alive.
LOL
it's not ok
right?
time to grow out of it
yes.
) that's all it is
remember I used to liek mouthing off
well easier said then
YES
lol
love it
but it's not constructive so i made strides to change
how?
and i realized it hurts people
and really doesn't solve the issue
there's ways of addressing it that leaves everyone in a positive mood
and I want to be the person taht makes people feel good. not the reverse
there's no pride in making someone feel bad
yeah.
I think recently i've surrounded myself with alot of really good, KIND people
and I really admired them
so for me, i wanted to emminate that
yeah.
MAITAI was like that.
is
and I want that in my life too
it makes you feel good about yoruself
yes.
spread the love
not the fucking hate
LOL yup
spread it all around
ok.
i'm gonna write that one my wall.
)
on
.....
i feel horrible
why?
you can always fix it
i just upset my friend soo much and my other friends are upset too
I know.
all it takes is an apology
but I have to stop pushing people's buttons
or it will happen again
and it shows strength of character to apologize
yes.
and they'll love youfor it
they know you have a big heart
you're dramatic but we all know you care
i do care.
i am SO dramatic
it's less now of course.
yeah I noticed. MUCH less
yes.
so.
she's requested, through a friend to NOT talk to her
i'll call her this weekend I guess
she doesn't want you to talk to her?
awww
no she wants to be left alone
gotcha
yeah
I need to get over myself
I think
i mean in certain ways
lol
well I understand
you had to overcome a few obstacles
hm
and at least. I think that's why you put up that shell
wha tshell?
what do u mean shell
i'm going to see prodigy tonight
the band
hope it's good
NICE
I love prodigy
well the fuck everything i'm doing my own thing shell
OH
LOL
yeah, it's ego
I think its' a shell so you won't be judged
LOL
and pride
and being and actor
judged ALL the TIME
interestin
yes.
hm
yoiu didn't have it ini high school
hm
it kinda developed somewhere in college
u think college made me this way?
I think it's also that we as actors always face and "go there"
and being judged when you audition
hm.
I've only had to do it once and I hated it. makes you feel insecure
it's horribly insecure.
i'm insecure.
kinda
yes and no
somethings.
butyou're wonderful
hm
lol
so are u
the industry's stupid
thanks
well, i know that
that's why I want out
that's good. I think it's the smartest thing to do
i can't wait to do theater not for profit

yeah. THAT was fun
I miss musicals
no more fucking commercials, mags bullshit
(
BULLSHIT
tho, cool thing, i'm in three next month
Esquire, GQ, Alive
wow
nice
do you save all the media you appear in?
yeah, when i can get my hands on it
i'll have fun things to look at wen i'm older
LOL
and show my kids
yeah i totally like that aspect of it
look, dad was actually hot
look at daddy looking all hot
DEHDDY
trust me taht was considered hot back then
!
I know
HAHA
haha
I love it
how funny
i wonnder what will be hot "in the year 2000"
craig and i talked about having kids too!!
it was crazy adultish talk
yeah, MAITAI and I...
yep
i'm trying to not write crazy dramatic emails anymore
LOL
it's hard
it's fine line between passionate and dramatic
but passionate is good
yes. i know
mine are usually sprinkled with a little humor
to lighten it
humor is good
brb
hm
someone just told me that I was stealing cable
lol
I don't even watch TV.
that's weird
some one called and said that?
i know
no somoene came in
and looked around and asked my how much my rent was.
strange
LOL

Friday, February 17, 2006

HIGH.

I'm sorry, I'm high as a kite right now. I haven't done this since like college. How funny.

Nothing to say, just that I love me some fucking DIMSUM AT 4 AM.

Taipei.
Ah.


DWAT!

Thursday, February 16, 2006

YEAR END PARTY.


So, a few nights ago, I had a nice time at the agency company party. See, here, they party from NEW YEARS pretty much all the way to almost the middle of Feb. It's amazing, and surely it beats the Jews. Sorry guys, we STILL eat more. Though I'd rather have latkas over shitty pizza anyday. THE SMOKED SALMON THO. WOW...

So it was a huge thing, the rented out this big ass hall downstairs at the Sheraton and there was a huge stage and such. It was quite an ordeal, but alas, poorly orginized. Which did add to the fun for me!

We get there at like 1 PM for rehearsals and makeup/wardrobe. We put on a show every year I guess (this was my first) for the bigger clients and friends of the boss (FAGS AND HAGS).

In the show, I'm supposed to be a 50's style guy with a pomp. I didn't know, first of all, that my hair could do this, but it can, and they made it work. I was part of the ending performance with the big boss man (woman) and it was quite funny. I don't have pics of course coz I was on stage, but it was very low budge and high sass to say the very least. The boss (Mr. Hong) is like a BFF in every sense of the word. And boy did he BFF it out. IF he had anymore sass, he would've popped his pussy. Shit. Anyway, it did make for a ridiculously DRAGGED OUT show. He had not one, but TWO wardrobe changes. (too bad they only showed the more PG stuff on TV)

We start the show at like 8, and afterwards, I eat till I wanna vom. Then eat some more. It was so good. I got home rather early that night, some people had asked me to go to club with them, but of course, the clubs bore me so. HOME.

At the raffle, I won a 6 month supply of oyster extract and come collegen stuffs. I have no clue whether to eat it or snort it or stick it up my ass, but I'll make it work. It's good for me right? I must be, tastes like DEAD RATS.

So anyway, at this party thing, I realized one thing. I do like a lot of the people I work with, some of them, I can even consider friends really. I mean, Alan is always looking out for me, Ruru, always nice, and Jen is just so nice and friendly and thoughtful. Bigi tho, she's my biggest supporter here in Taiwan. She's like a big sister, like a mentor. She pushes me harder and makes me strive for more in my work, she's a good one. And she let me draw a fake 'stache on her ha!

I was a nice time to celebrate and just chill out.


Dwat!

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

YUMMY!

Feast your eyes on this!

Apparently, there's been some shady business going on with some of the night market food vendors... I'll let the pictures speak for themselves:

Try eating whilst viewing, it's nearly impossible!










UM...

NEXT WEEK, GROUND ZERO OF SARS.

(a queasy) Dwat!

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

VDAY. I GIVE UP. hehe.

Happy Valentine's Day everyone. HAPPY FUCKING VALENTINE'S DAY. (Can you tell I've lost mine?)



BUT MUCH MORE IMPORTANTLY. HAPPY FUCKING BIRTHDAY DONNA TAMAR BAREKET!!!!!!!!

As this year passes for you, I want to wish you all the love you can't possible handle from all your loved ones, and the best sleep of your life every night. Also, lots and lots and lots of good vocal days.

ALL my love,

DWAT!

PS: Shit is returning to normal. I am no longer afraid to walk long distances in public...

Monday, February 13, 2006

Worst Shoot EVER. So far. :)

So the other day, (Friday) I was at a shoot for this soap I do here. It's was the last shoot for me, it was supposed to be easy but OH IT SO WAS THE COMPLETED OPPOSITE OF THAT.

I get there at 4 PM to learn the dance I was supposed to do. We get there, and all these extras are being stupid and not cooperative and not learning the dance well. I dunno where they found these ghetto-ass children from, but holy Jesus, I've seen more IQ in the toilet after thanksgiving.

So we dance, we learn (so easy), we practice. And then, WE SIT. AND SIT. AND SIT.

The director is insane (and usually does films) so he's doing 4000 takes of one mob scene. At one point one of the said extras goes crazy method and starts a real fight on set. SO GOOD. Apparently, he's also a gang member, oh I know it's SO good, and so he's all crazy and calls his HOMMIES to come and get his back. This was at around 3 AM mind you. Anger building...

This goes on for like a few more rounds and I am considering smoking out with my friend Barry (shooting as well) just to stay sane. We don't. Saniy slowly slips away...

Uh huh. So at around 5 AM, I'm already completely INSANE COZ A, I've been in makeup for like over 12 hours and B, I've taken two REALLY bad craps already. AND C, the worst, after three bottles of water from the fountain, they told me it was bad to drink from coz it hadn't been cleaned all winter. NIIIIIIICE. Things do suck without SAG.

So, someone comes and tells us that we can leave, they won't get to us tonight. We double check, we get out of makeup and wardrobe. IMMEDIATELY AFTER I'm done putting my clothes on (it's also FREEZING now coz we're shooting at a port town) THEY COME AND TELL US TO GO DOWN TO DO THE SCENE. DANCE, almost 6 AM. They need to get the shot before the sun comes up. NOW, let me remind you that THESE FUCKING IDIOT CHILDREN wouldn't BE ABLE TO GET IT DOWN IN 10 TAKES (which would be ALREADY A MIRACLE) so there was no point really, and they told us we were done. So I grab my pay, tell the PA that he didn't see me, and it was just crazy what they were doing, and left.

It was beyond RIDICS at the point, so. My tired body just couldn't have done it. So Barry and I just fucking left.

WORST SHOOT I'VE EVER BEEN ON. EVER.

Dwat!

Wow, sorry that was negative. It was pretty bad tho...

Thursday, February 09, 2006

BROKED ON THE BACK.

So, tonight, I watched goddamn BBM for the THIRD TIME. Granted, second was a freebee, but still. I think I'm quite done crying over gay cowboys. Or rather, my tear ducts are dry coz I've been VOMITING SHIT OUT OF MY ASS FOR LIKE A WEEK AND HALF NOW!!!!! I'm like a fucking BEANCURD.

There seems to be no end in sight, not that I wanna look down that end too much right now anyway. I dunno, there is a virus going around apparently and it's making my bowels CRAZY. Like KRRRRAZY. Like normally, I eat, I shit. I eat, I shit. This. I'm afriad to eat, I SHIT. I SHIT I SHIT I SHIT. I SHIT SOME MORE. No good.

I went to the doc today, and he asked me all these questions. It went a little something like this:

Doc: So, do you smoke?
Me: Nope.
D: Do you drink?
M: Well, u know here and there, not really on a regular basis.
D: Are you suuuure?
M: *blinks*
D: So have you been eating abnormally?
M: *blinks* ...well, there was Chinese New Year, and before that, the holidays in teh states. So I've been eating shit for almost a month a half now?
D: *blinks* TYPES FRANTICALLY ON THE KEYBOARD.
M: ...Sorry, yeah, I forgot to tell you that.
D: Um, well u need to eat more normally, more meals, less AMOUNT. AND YOU CAN'T EAT PEANUTS, BREAD, RICE, APPLES, MILK, ICE CREAM, ANY MILK PRODUCTS, NO SOY, NO BEANS, NOTHING TOO FIBEROUS *goes on for about 12 more items.*
M: GETS UP AND WALKS OUT, FURIOUS.

hehe, no, actually, he did mention a TON of things I couldn't eat. So here I am, sports drink in one hand, tissue in the other. No, not for my tearing eyes. *sighs*

Anyway, I hope everyone is doing well. I just wanted to share a little of this with you all. I think I've been on the toilet like around 10 times today. Serious yo.

ks,

DWAT!

PS: PICS SOON FROM A RIDICS EVENT!

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

拜拜 Day!

Today was the opening ceremony of the agency!

ok, enough said about that.

It's really cold here in T'waan. Like, Almost San Fran cold. I miss my famous "nice collective" jacket. I really do. It was so good for layering, damn. Yeah, I left it in the states. Mom's bringing it at some point. Prolly March.

and this:

http://www.nydailynews.com/news/gossip/story/389027p-330100c.html

I want some weaves to fly (ahem, Mariah). "Travelin Travelin, to the arms of unconsciousneeeeeeess"

OK. Bed time for me. Just thought I'd say hi.

I miss you all. Been missing a lot of people lately. So yes, this means YOU.

DWAT!

Monday, February 06, 2006

DWAT is... "BRILLIANT VIRTUE"?

So apparently, my name is Chinese means "BRILLIANT VIRTUE"

Over zealous much Mr. and Mrs. Chung? Perhaps. But then, this is version 2.0. and it's got ALL NEW FEATURES. FUCK TIGER, I got VIRTUE BIOTCHES!

Before I get ALL BILL O'RIELLY ON SOMETHING THAT HAPPENED THIS WEEKEND, I must say that I had a FAN FREEKKIN TASTIC TIME.

Friends HelEll, RIch, Tomsy, Cherie, Katie (+1), WillAren, and various others joined me as we celebrated Ellen's 28! Girl is getting old and we wanted to send her out to pasture with some bottles (cop'd from an airplane) of hard liquor. Yes, recent events in my life have made me realize that I don't want to limit myself anymore (ie: no booze, just wine/beer) so I've started drinking the hard stuff again. All in moderation of course. Just not this weekend, I was drinking to forget. Just gimme ONE of those all right?!?!?



Start:

So, we all pile into Cherie's little apt. room thing, and it was very quaint. Rich's socks smelled nice. I was down there.

We started to eat her RIDICS DELISH VIETNAMESE SPRING ROLLS. IT WAS TOO MUCH FOR ME. I ignored the tummy ache and pressed on like I was Tyra Banks after the cameras go off. Oh you know she does.



So, after dinner and cake (I had three slices), we continued our adventures over at the wonderful world or CAFE OEDON. For those of you who've NOT been there, it's a wonderful place in TPE where all these serve is BELGIUM BEER. ONLY. It's get really out of control for me, coz I usually forget by the 4th or 23rd glass how much I've had. BUT HERE"s WHAT HAPPENED BEFORE WE GET THERE. THE CAFE IS BY THE SCHOOL THAT TAIWAN IS FAMOUS FOR. TAIDA. NTU NATIONAL TAIWAN UNIVERSITY. PEOPLE FROM THERE HAVE EGOS OK MUTHAFOCKAHS?!!?!


THE CABBIE STOPPED TO RADIO IN FOR DIRECTIONS THREE TIMES.



This is a common occurance in Taipei, and it makes me wanna pop all my veins because...

THEY ALWAYS ASK YOU WHERE TO GO. LIKE THE CABBIE WILL ASK YOU, THE PASSENGER WHERE TO GO. EXACTLY WHAT AM I PAYING YOU FOR YOU FUCKING FUCK FUCK!?!?!!?!!!?!?! FUCK!



Ahem.

So. We stay at the cafe for a few magical (forgotten) hours and then we're magically wisked off to a KAREOKE place called V-MIX.

V-MIX is kinda GHETTO but nicely decked out, I THINK PEOPLE GET SHOT (UP) AROUND THERE. Anyway, so we stay there till sunrise pretty much. It was fun, I remember trying to balance myself on top of a mouse, like on a computer. HOT.

I did, however, manage to take the subway TO and FROM the festivities, only passing out ONCE! I was proud.

End.


And, I love you.

Dwat!

PS: Mandarin class starts this week. I'm gonna die, 8 AM everyday.
PPS: More pics soon :)

Friday, February 03, 2006

Reason Two: Why I'm not going to Egypt.

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20060204/ap_on_re_mi_ea/egypt_ship_sinks

After 20 hours in the water, THE FISH STARTED TO EAT THEM.

I'm not sure how to respond to that... But it kinda makes me hungry.

DWAT!

LIONS AND TIGERS AND BEARS!

Soooo,

What do people do (all 45,000 of them) in Taiwan when it's nice out? Why, go to the ZOO of course! It was a beautiful day outside and we were gonna go see a movie, then we decided that we better enjoy the weather before it becomes RIDICS. So, we went to the Muzha Zoo, the "MOOZOO" as I call it.

It's actually a really nice place to get away from the buildings of TPE, cept that it's a little run down now from the continuous construction. Also, there weren't that many animals really. They were "in hiding" (dead). I mean, I spend a long time getting all Goodall, staring at the apes. They really are amazing to watch... that reflection of humanity. Then they fling the poo... :)

We had a good time, I very tired, but it was good.

Here are some pictures :)


This is my friend Helen, she complains that I mess up her game. It's the cheap hat, I know it is.

With the infamous "MK's" We love it, WE LOVE IT. I'm just Ash by default for now.

TAIPEI's GOT HELEN CLIMBING THE WALLS! ALSO, WE WERE LOOKING FOR TORTURED ANIMALS TO FREE.

THAT FACE IS INVOLUNTARY FROM THE SMELL.

BIG MOMMA'S HOUSE.

I do apoligize for the crazy blogging as of late. I've had a lot on the noggin...

See you next time, same Dwat channel, same Dwat time...

DWAT!

Thursday, February 02, 2006

DWAT IS CRAZY.

I am completely crazy now. It’s certifiable now. I can’t stop my brain from thinking about things that I can do NOTHING about. If I could just stop the hamster wheel for 1 hour, I could let myself fall asleep. So, instead, I’ll blog I guess…

But, I do have a lot on my mind these days. I am making life changing decisions and I’m deathly afraid that I am making the wrong ones. NY for the summer? Chinese classes 5 days a week? Finding less fulfilling jobs to make lots more money? (but really what could be less fulfilling than modeling) Not eating anything all day from depression? Well, the last one does allow my stomach to be very flat that is until I cram it full of BURGER KING around 2 AM.

Yeah, I know I haven’t had fast food like that since LA, but really, I don’t care. I was hungry, and I’m upset. I want some fucking fried chicken.

WHY 2 AM fried chicken? Tonight, Richard, Helen and I went to see Syriana. Great film, very good on many levels, though not REALLY what I was in the mood to see. Actually, I could’ve witnessed the crucifixion of Christ and I would’ve prolly been distracted by my mind. Like I said, much on it these days.

It was so good to see Clooney not do Clooney for once. He was so vulnerable and human when he is not “Danny Ocean”, u know what I mean. And, I loved how the stories never really weaved, and yet, they were all affected by each other, truly a reflection of the global village we live in. Though I thought that there could’ve been a little more development of characters… I guess there were so many, that they didn’t have too much time… Great movie though, made you think, and once again, HATE AMERICA. And then I had Burger King.

I was listening to all the folks around us, and I don’t think anyone really understood the movie, like at all. I heard some girl say “I didn’t get any of that” and “How slow and boring!” I wanted to reach over and smack her with my scarf.

It is now 6 AM. TPE/HK time. FAN FUCKING TASTIC.

So I will find out in two months whether or not I’m going to New York. Pray to your Gods.

What else. The weather has been amazing these past few days. No rain, just nice, dry, cold. I’m thrilled like a roach in a Taiwan night market. So good. I hope that SOME OF YOU hint hint can VISIT me whilst I’m here. That would be YOU, yes YOU.

DWAT!