Closer.

So I just got home and it starts to pour. The wind is crazy and there seems to be a storm a brewin.

It sounds like someone is pissing outside my window. Like crazy first thing in the morning piss. Like 7 beers later piss. Like fucking they've never pissed before.

I had a very interesting and long night tonight. I learned a lot about myself. I kind looked at how I was raised and how it effect how I treat people.

Not all good.

I mean, I have to admit that I was a bit spoiled. Even though we are certainly not the riches family i know, I have to say that I was validated and given a lot of room as a kid. I was never spoiled rotten, I was just priviliaged child.

To this, I make corn bread. Coz A, mom loves it. And, B, well A's enough.

Yeah, I have to really thank my parents for everything they've done for me. They spend their whole lives trying to make mine and my brother's better. I can only wish that I will come to a place like that one day. I can be like Angelina and Brad combined, just without the press, and the lips and muscles and shit.

I am going to try to listen to people and look at things from their POV, coz people really handle things differently. And, if I want to spend time listening to them, and if I REALLY care, I should give that much heavier consideration than i do now.

I guess, up to know, I would listen to someone, but still think that I have a better solution. It might be for ME, but it ain't really my problem now is it?

no.

See, that's where I've run into touble in the past. It's not my intentions are bad, it's just that sometimes, I go about things COMPLETELY the WRONG WAY.

I gotta stop doing that.

ok, so it's 4 AM and I need to sleep :)

Love ya'll,

KS